epikia

it’s already past 2:30 in the morning, yet sleep is still elusive…

i went to bed around 10:30 pm last night and for some reasons after only

about three hours in dreamland, i woke up feeling so anxious. the feeling

did not go off as fast as i want it be. i tried my hardest to go back to

sleep, to no avail. i didn’t want to think of exactly why i was having such

feelings because for one, i don’t like it, and two, my grey matters seemed

so unfit to be wasted at this unholy hour for such brain activity (or so i

thought).

i tried to continue reading the 3rd book of the vampire romance series that

i’m so into right now, but words seemed alien for me to understand. i

repeatedly read the part where Bella and Edward visited Renee in Florida

for a good five minutes. so i decided to stop and ran to the refuge on web

access. (Baby Kits and Pido are inside the room, enjoying a wonderful good

night sleep. good for them.) i checked my mail, with nothing new of much

particular importance. boredom must have hit me that fast, i started to

register for another social network site that Pido invited me to; posted a

few pictures for it and thought about a few words to describe

myself…pretty boring task ayt?

how could i ever miss friendster? so i decided to post our pictures for

when we went to Enchanted Kingdon for our Family Day at 24/7 customer

phils., inc. i was reminded of how fun that day was for us. Kits enjoyed a

few rides that his small figure would allow, and the good food from

Domino’s that his Dad bought. It was so much fun, he even had only few naps

to somehow recharge and then went an extra mile to stay up late til 9pm to

make sure no time was lost in that wonderful place!

(Kits is crying…wait.)

I needed to fix baby his milk and feed Kits and then i’m back to the

notebook…

EK pictures are still loading…i’m only 16% of i think 200+ pictures. i

don’t have any idea if i would last waiting for everything to be uploaded.

(so now i have the reason to stay up soo late! haha!)

what do i have in mind right now? a lot! i would not even dare tell them

all. it will be all tiring…but boring for the most part…hehe. my brain

is like that, it keeps on working even if i don’t want it to. makes me

wonder, is it just me or is it just the way the human brain was designed by

God?

i’m wondering if Kits is having a sweet dream now…or if Pido is into his

REM stage too…are their brains cells all working on a funny tale now, and

their major voluntary muscles all paralysed? did you know that REM stage

(the part of sleeping where most people dream) occurs roughly after 90

minutes after sleep onset?

stop, stop..my thoughts now are being so scientifically boring…

back to where some og thoughts are…

awww…why in the world’s game is friendster taking so much of its time to

upload the pictures?!

anyways, i’m thinking as to when exactly should i submit my resignation

letter to my team leader…goodbyes are always never an easy thing. but i

have no choice now. i’m not happy with what i’m doing at work. recently,

workdays have been very dragging for me. a few days i’ve awaken in the

morning and i needed to convince myself so hard that i love working. that

was not a good thing to do. it’s always never a good thing to pretend, not

when you are being paid for it. lol! so fine, i’m working now because i

need to. i need my job so i can get paid. i need to get paid because we

have bills to pay for, milk to buy, food to buy again, and a lot of other

trivial stuff we need that only money can provide! it pains me that this is

ow it is now, but it has always been one of the very basic realities of

this world, mostly for persons not born with the gold spoon in them, so

they say. harsh. grrr…

but it’s ok. i need to say it’s ok, otherwise i would forever wail and

wallow in a pod of angsts. hey, at least i get to meet a lot of good

friends at work, and then a pack of not-so-good-colleagues, who have given

me so much lessons in life.

(i think friendster is doing their unscheduled system maintenance — a

positive way to say friendster froze! the screen froze on loading one

picture which is less than 1MB in size!)

oh no, it’s already 3:30 am and i’m still here…

wait i have to try and get some sleep again…otherwise i would probably be

not on my best for the rest of the day…

thanks to blogging, time passed me by quickly…

apologies for spending some time reading this when you weren’t able to get

something better out of what i’ve written. =)

will try to sleep now…spiderman will watch over the pictures…

p.s. i’ve written this blog in a notepad first, then saved it to

friendster. just in case you’re wondering how i was able to post a blog and

upload pictures all at the same time. not at the same time,

really…whatever nicey, go to sleep! *wink!* =p

– uploading of pictures was interrupted. i got impatient and hit F5. i’ll

just to the others on another day… see i told you…i failed the

marshmallow test! good early morning!